Another one:

  Two posts in one night, crazy.
I don't really have much to say tonight actually. I'm just kind of laying here in bed thinking about what to do next in my life. Sometimes I think that my mind doesn't belong to that of a 16 year old. I think about things that most kids my age don't. And i'm not talking about "dark, morbid stuff." But about interactions and how the human brain works and how people perceive you. I must sound like some nerd, but the human mind fascinates me. I want to know more about how it works. I want to learn how to manipulate people and how to read people. God, there is so much I want to know.


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So I've decided...

  This blog is going to be where i just write everything down. My life, my ideas, my frustrations. Whenever i have something i think is inspiring or interesting i'm going to put it here. I want to be heard. This is a place where i am in control. Everyone needs to be king somewhere. This is MY kingdom.

was any of it the truth?

have you ever had that one person that you dont realize how much you need, until it starts to be too late? i think im at that point right now. and i dont know how to fix things. should i apologize when i didnt do anything? he was the one to mess up, not me. if anything that he said in the past was true, or had any meaning, then he would fix things and talk to me. if any of it, was true...

a little lie

why dont people understand how much a little lie can hurt? and that the action isnt what bothers someone, the fact that the action was hidden is. how are people so dense? like what the hell. and then they dont understand when someone doesnt want anything to do with them anymore.

i feel sorry for them. i dont think they realize just how much theyre pushing the people that care about them away. when will they wake up and figure their shit out? it makes me sad because im losing someone i care about because they lied. and they just dont get it. with one lie, all my trust in him has disappeared, and i dont know when i will be able to respect him again. i dont know when i will be able to enjoy his company again. i dont know if i will be able to forgive him. i just simply dont know.